I have so much to write about right now, but i have the world's worst headache, so we'll see what i can do.
First of all right now i feel like crap, my head is aching, and i'm so fucking sick...i keep coughing and sneezing and my nose and throat are all stuffy and bleh...my eyes itch my head is like spinning...i'm so sick feeling right now i'm barely here.
|Reach for the lasers with Antic's Sims-ulator!|
I've always wanted one of those things, lol.
Okay. So to tackle today.
Well this morning i woke up in brandon's arms again, that is the best feeling in the world. I've never loved anyone so much. So he left for school and so did i, and that all good stuff.
So school was normal, boring...sucked cuz i was so fucking sick :(
Then after school i came home and ate lunch then me and my mom went to savemart to get food and go to the bank, and we met up w/ brandon there and he hung out w/ me in the grocery store (ooh fun) and then my mom took us both to my school and brandon came in my 7th period. He met brandy and suzie, they thought he was weird...he is lol. We went in the photo room cuz suzie wanted to show me a picture of the guy she's asking to sadie's and brandon was so excited by the darkroom thing. haha.
So then we went back to our class and watched some of finding nemo. We had a sub and she was all pissed cuz everyone left and stuff, she didn't know that's what we were supposed to do in that class.
So after that class was when things got not so good. the plan was brandon was gonna walk to the corner and my mom was gonna take me home and then i'd change and go to work, but just pick up bubba on the way so he'd get a ride to mcdonalds, but when we got home my mom's all you're not driving to work today because yesterday we saw your clock out slip and it's not the time you said, too bad she dug out the one from my break! But yeah, so she drove me to work which sucked cuz i had to strand brandon but he figured it out and walked to mcdonalds and then me and him had a convo over the headsets hehe, it was exciting. I was afraid he'd be mad, but he wasn't cuz he's PERFECT.
So then he got food, and sat there while i worked, i felt bad, but he had nowhere to go. Then i finally got my 30 and i was sitting there w/ him and then kyle came to get him :(
So i went back to working. Work sucked, cuz at first it was cool cuz Perla was manager and she rocks cuz she actually has a brain, so she understands my cheating thing, she wants to do it too, so we were doing that all fine, but then Juana comes in and she doesn't understand my cheating way so she was just being so fucking stupid and bitchy and grrrrrrrrr. And everyone was in a pissy mood today at work, i sware it sucked. And i keep hearing all this crap this girl Mayra says about me behind my back cuz she thinks i keep talking shit about her, but really i never have, i haven't ever liked her, but that doesn't mean i talk shit about her! So i heard she's all threatening me behind my back, so i was being such a bitch to her and she got all upset, it was exciting. I wanted to bang someone in the head with that fucking beeping piece of plastic i had to wear on my head all fucking day when i had the world's worst headache. Yep.
So after work my mom picked me up, i was still all pissed at her, and i said something about someone calling me for brandon and she's all "you don't need to talk to him anymore"
So then i came home and came online, i was trying to eat my double cheeseburger for dinner but i couldn't eat it my head hurt too bad so i had to throw it away and i went and took a shower and now i feel a lil better, but i still feel like SHIT.
So then i started writing this extremely LONG entry, and then bubba calls me and invites me over tonite, so i'm gonna go to kyle's house and spend the night, fun stuff <3 Hehehehe
So yeah, my parents know brandon keeps sneaking over in the middle of the night and they're not too happy, but they still haven't done anything. And i was all sweet, they're not doing anything, but then i thought about it, what can they do? The only priveledge i have right now is the fact that i get to use the car to drive to work...oooh big deal. So they seriously can't do anything. My mom said i can't talk to brandon anymore, well sorta, but like that's gonna stop me! Lol, and if they just beat me up for it i'll just call the cops and they'll let me leave.
But yeah, things suck, but then they're good at the same time.
I'm...disappointed tho. I don't give a fuck about my dad, i haven't for a long time...but my mom....i love her. She isn't the best mom, she really sucks at lots of times, and she doesn't understand very much, but i can tell she tries, and even tho she doesn't do the best thing for me (or my brother and sister) very often, i can tell she THINKS she's doing the right thing and as a person i think she's pretty cool, she has different ideas and priorities than me, but i still like her and respect her opinion (something she should do for me). So yeah, that's my shpeil (i have no clue how to spell that but i love how it sounds) about my mom...but yeah, so i know what i want to do w/ my life now and i'm gonna do it, and i was hoping my mom would realize this and agree to be civil about things so we could remain friends, but she's not going to and i know it's gonna ruin our relationship which really sucks cuz i wanted to maintain a good relationship with her for the rest of my life and it looks like i'm not going to...but there's still time for her to change...